blues.

In high school, I used to get the Sunday night blues. They have since evolved into the Monday morning blues.

Those of the Sunday variety seem stupid and insignificant in comparison to the ones I feel now and the situation that makes me feel them.

It’s odd because I’m at a comfortable spot where I have a plan that’s been set in motion (somewhat; nothing solid to tell you until a week from today). Things will be infinitely better in a month’s time and I should be using that simple fact to pull me through, but it’s very hard to.

It’s weird because I’m a mixture of living in the moment and thinking way too far ahead into the future. Each facet of me gets me into trouble. When I live in the moment right now I get upset and depressed, whereas thinking into the future would remedy that – but I can’t. Sometimes when I think into the future I think too far ahead and get worrisome, so living in the moment would remedy that – but I can’t.

For each situation I know what I have to do but I don’t do it. This is probably why I don’t sleep much anymore and am up at all hours of the night with a stomach ache and/or headache.

It’s completely not like me and completely needs to be changed and it will – give me a month or so.

the guts.

I’ve read the Twilight series. Yes, I got sucked into it. Yes, I got a little obsessed with it. I will admit to that, but what I cannot admit to is that the writing was superb. The situations were intriguing, the thought of Edward Cullen propelled me through most of the books, but as a fan of the horror/goth/vampire genre…well, these books simply weren’t it. These books were aimed at teen girls with crushes and smothered sexual desires.

Thank you Stephen King, my FAVORITE author, for this (as per Pink is the New Blog):

In an interview with USA Weekend, the bestselling author compared Meyer with J.K. Rowling, the author of the Harry Potter series. According to Stephen, “Both Rowling and Meyer, they’re speaking directly to young people… The real difference is that Jo Rowling is a terrific writer and Stephenie Meyer can’t write worth a darn. She’s not very good.”

This coming from the man who also dissed Dean Koontz and James Patterson. LOVE IT.

Tony said last night that Stephen King wasn’t horror. I think he is. Tony thinks he’s more sci-fi and suspense.

Stephen King is horror because he finds a way, simply through words, to tap into a person’s innate fears (in either a general or particular way) and make her stare at them straight on. He does this through the use of sci-fi and suspense tactics, sure. Sometimes I do think he’s a little more sci-fi than not.

But the bottom line is – he makes people lose sleep at night. Or, at the very least, find themselves in an everyday situation, thinking of his words because he has the tendency to pull the guts out of a normal situation and make it horrifying.